I ended 2016 on a good note, which was nice given it was a difficult year. I had far to many transitions happening all at once, a heap of life changing moments sprinkled with some shocking disappointments and topped off with a giant misunderstanding.
I want to give details just so you’re convinced I know what a struggle is, however I don’t trust that it wouldn’t trail off and become a depressing account of events to painful to read through and I’d lose you before you got to the good part!
The weeks before Thanksgiving and going on through to Christmas were tough enough, the holiday days themselves went well, good overall – different in a dozen ways than anything I’ve ever had before but good (all things considered).
I read a blog by Lana Vawser about 2016 isn’t over yet – so don’t give up.
This gal is inspirational – a prophet, she’s got great news except I find my life rarely lines up with her words (makes me wonder about my life!). I keep reading partly out of hope and part desperate desire that my turn for good, prosperous, breakthrough, miracles, etc. IS going to happen for me. I guess it’d be the same reason so many keep buying a lottery ticket – it doesn’t cost me that much to invest in the possibilities and I believe my chances of being blessed are just as good as they are for anyone else.
Well, as much as I wanted a “Christmas Miracle” in any of my many areas of life that so desperately need a miracle I spent Christmas realizing having Jesus in my heart is a miracle enough and I am grateful for that. Christmas came and went.
On Dec. 28th the home we were trying to sell, that had been such a nightmare of events just to get it on the market (after an unforeseen disaster), finished in escrow and closed. It was sold, keys handed over and finally done. It was a huge relief emotionally, financially and physically.
Dec. 29th I watched a video at Celebrate Recovery from “The Skit Guys”http://skitguys.com/ called “Gods Chisel” https://skitguys.com/videos/item/gods-chiseland had a realization life is a process – I’m not finished yet and as painful as change can be it can beautify my life in ways that nothing else can, it breaks me out of patterns, habits, situations, relationships etc. and frees me up to be who I was intended to be, which inevitably creates in me another level of joy. An amazingly freeing Ah-ha moment.
Dec. 30th I have an exciting day. It started with the miracle of my husband and my son cheerfully helping me unpack and sort through about a dozen boxes from our move. Then my son (who isn’t the “hang out with Mom type”) actually asked me (just me!) out to lunch and an outing. We had a fabulous day – went to lunch, went on a 45 min. car ride having a great conversation on our way to our shopping destination. I then scored BIG TIME at my favorite place to buy books (36 books for $18.90) – ok, ok I’ll spill – it was at Value Village, they had 99cent book day, plus buy 4 get 1 free and then I had my 30% off total purchase coupon. My son and I chatted joyfully all the way home. He had also found a few treasures.
Dec. 31 New Years Eve, a night I spend alone with my nonverbal quadriplegia daughter every year. Usually quiet (except neighborhood explosions). This year we had a school mate of hers come over with her Mom in the afternoon. It was wonderful, the girls hit it off beautifully and we discovered they are truly friends and a great match. My daughter hasn’t had any friends, which is heart breaking, but true. Having a glimmer of hope that this wonderful girl and her Mom would be happy to begin a weekly hang out was a joy, a gift, a miracle that I have been praying for for 19 years. My heart rejoices, my God has not forgotten my child and He is providing for her as she enters into adulthood.
Then – I get a last minute call “Hi Mom, will you babysit?” my oldest son and his wife got free tickets to a concert and I was given the opportunity to watch my 1 1/2 year old grandson – a treasure I value immeasurably. We have a quiet evening and he falls asleep in my lap. I pick up my book “Epic” and finish it. I realize 2016 ended wonderfully. I’m blessed even in my mess.
“Life, for most of us, feels like a movie we’ve arrived to forty minutes late. Sure, good things happen, sometimes beautiful things. But tragic things happen too. What does it mean? We find ourselves in the middle of a story that is sometimes wonderful, sometimes awful, usually a confusing mixture of both, and we haven’t a clue how to make sense of it all.” – John Eldredge
When I read the above quote on the back of the book it caused me to buy it desperately proclaiming “Please! I relate – tell me what you know of this conundrum I find myself living!”
It’s a great, tiny, short read, terrific for an end of or beginning of a new year impact. A great read for movie goers as it is full of references to movies (especially those that men like to watch).
I can see that each year is like a new chapter, my life is a story – and yours is also.
My hope and prayer for all of us –
May we understand how immensely valuable we are in the grand scheme of things. We aren’t to big or to small, to young or to old, we are “just right” perfectly and purposefully designed and created for such a time as this. To do just the very thing we may find to be ordinary and mundane but is, in reality the very thing keeping our world together and functioning in order to bring Gods kingdom and His will into being.
May we take great value in realizing that like a clock – every cog, nut, bolt and screw must be in place and must work together so that time itself can move forward as it was intended. Every second is necessary; for a year is just a pile of days made up of hours that just don’t add up without each minuscule, underestimated, often ignored yet precious second. We count! It is “A Wonderful Life” and it’s truly “EPIC“!
Happy New Year! 2017 has now begun…
Here are some scriptures that have gotten me through tough time and inspire me:
Romans 8:28 “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
Philippians 3:12-14 “I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.”
Hebrews 12:1-2 “Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”